Always Learning

Josh and I have been dating for almost 6 months, which isn't a big deal to me, but for him it is. We went to a party last Friday and had a good time, but before I left a friend wanted to vent, which turned into a serious conversation. I told her that I felt as though the apartment I lived in for almost a year has never felt like home and that I've constantly had to watch my step. I always felt criticized by my roommate and felt like the environment was toxic. It brought me down emotionally and physically and I couldn't wait to leave. She gave me good advice and said treat this not only as a physical break from her but an emotional one as well. She also told me to call her because she had been in a situation like this and knew that as soon as I moved into my new place I may feel lost. She said that after being suffocated for a year, having that first burst of fresh air can be overwhelming. So, I promised to call her.... Anyways, back to my story... This conversation was very thought provoking. So when I was driving home with Josh, I was quiet, lost in thought. We went to bed, but I felt as though he was ... stiff (and not in a perverted way... :P) Then all of a sudden:

Josh - "Are you mad at me?"
Me - "What! Of course not, why would you think that."
Josh - "Because you're quiet."
Me - "I don't always talk."
Josh - "Yes... you do."

HAHAHAHAHA!

Then we spent another two hours just talking about us and his past relationships. His first girlfriend and him dated on and off again for 4 years. Apparently, she would date him for a few months, then Josh would 'say or do something wrong' and she would break up with him. I guess he is just insecure about us. I don't know why. I know his father isn't doing well. It sounds as if he is stable, but weak. I try not to pry about this, because I know it is hard, and I don't know what it's like to lose a father (thank goodness). Maybe he feels as though his life is falling apart. He seems so down lately... I don't know what to do to cheer him up...