Emotions

As I am sitting here in the library, "working" on my manuscript (which I am doing), I was telling J how hungry I am. I have ate lightly all day, ran 8.5 miles, and right before we came to the library I had a small bowl of rice with vegetable curry. So mid way through, I get hungry, and start munching (pretzels and pistachios). I started complaining that I was still hungry, but then started justifying as to why (i.e. eating lightly). J then said, "that was a pretty good size bowl of rice you had." My hunger disappears, and I feel... ashamed, hurt, angry, and just have this urge to stop eating all together. With one comment, all of my past work to fight the need to purge is now meaningless. I feel ashamed that I eat a lot, and so ashamed of how I look.

Right now, I am very aware of myself and my body.

I don't know if it's because it was J who said it, or maybe because it's 'that time of the month.'

Does one comment have the power to make someone change? Have you ever had someone tell you something that knocked you two steps back, or more?